Where Have I Been?

Hello World!
I haven’t been around much. I know. I’m sorry. Where have I been? I can’t wait to tell you. I’ve been on a craaaaaaazy journey through time and space. Through a vortex of disappointment to back on top again. To an unsound balance-beam of pure frustration and joy. Where the heck is that? You may ask. As a writer, many of you will have experienced this place before. The name of this abnormal ether is what I like to call, Writer’s Rejection Land.

Writer’s Rejection Land is a place all writers go when their beautiful piece of art has been turned down by an awesome agent. At first  you tell yourself, “That’s okay. Maybe that agent just wasn’t for me. Maybe that agent is stupid in the head and doesn’t understand how much money he/she just turned down.” Then you start to spiral into the vortex of disappointment. WHY? WHYYYY??! Why wasn’t I good enough? How could I have been THIS CLOSE and still not have connected. This stage lasts a while. And it sucks. Big time.

Next you enter into the balance-beam of pure frustration. This is when you grab yourself up by your broken bootstraps and start again. Start re-working, re-thinking, re-organizing. You get your stuff together and try again. This can be a very frustrating process. A balance beam of frustration.

But alas! There is light at the end of the tunnel. For some reason, a big disappointment can make one super creative. Have you noticed you wrote the best poems when you were heart-broken? (Flash back to college and that boy…) Ahem, anyway, I found myself writing crazy things that I never thought of before. I found myself getting my characters out of sticky situations, when before, I had no idea how to. I started having weird dreams that were solving my writing problems FOR ME. It was amazing. And now, here I am, back on top, feeling amazing about my creativity once again!

So I would beseech you, dear writers (and those who have been rejected a time or two) to know that there is light at the end of the tunnel! Know that more creativity does lie within your belly and it will expel itself one way or another. Sometimes it takes a disappointing push, or a vivid and colorful dream, and sometimes it just takes hard work, determination and a little thing called believing in yourself.

Go get ’em tiger. This bird is back!

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